Ride life straight to perfect laughter

You can be. Just dont even start if you are not willing to take it. You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire. Its the only good fight there is.

Millenium Mambo

That year there was a heavy snow storm in Yubari.
It was the year 2001. The world was greeting the new millennium.

Proteus

I shall be humble.
For none of the inspirations lying dormant in me shall unfold without faith.

The idea keeps me awake at night.
This is creation.

It is magic. As the words with the power to inspire are formed through only one thing.
An idea. A symbol.



"He would scour the world, assuming whatever form he desired."

Profound intelligence

The problem is deep and complex. Lets look at one issue that is so grotesque that it should make you think. More deeply. More thoroughly. Get interested. Curious.

Why? My personal motivation is to clarify, Gentlemen. From my own experience, I know, Gentlemen, I know, that once the problem is understood and outlined, it will appear simple to even the most ignorant mind.

All knowledge is subject to infinite regression.
We came to a point, where a decision has to be made. We cant continue like this.

I will not, ... sorry, let me correct myself.
We ... will not let that happen.

Creative destruction of our basis, of our most valued principles is necessary to pursue this path, to continue and ultimately to achieve victory. The greatest danger lies in this victory or in the illusion of having achieved what we were striving for. Its never ending learning.

Let us be arrogant and humbly destroy our own achievements. Never let anything last long enough to become its own reason for destruction. We destroy it ourselves, by accelerating its evolution. Thank you, Hermes, for your clarification on that issue.

I honor you.

Between worlds

I tried to make the story as bizarre and abstract as I could, without crossing the line.

The readers loved it.
It was all about this place where nothing changes. Memories were alive.
People risked everything to go there. Nobody returned.

Only me.

Sucker lover

Mental seduction. Blurring the boundaries between affection and egoism. Selfish and kind.

Walking away

Now I understand. It is in the moment that I turn away that I am truly myself.
Want to have a fight with somebody in order to provoke real emotions. Tired of emotional distance and tatemae. Love to provoke reactions.

How much of what I do is real, how much is pretending in order to provoke reactions.
I am a fraud.

Watching

Aesthetic pleasure derives from the idealization of the object of desire.
The question is whether I want to keep this distance in order not to lose my illusions.

Am I capable of being close to anybody? What part in me is watching, what part of me is idealizing?

It is like going back to the show after the half-time break. You draw a last time at your cigarette. You watch your breath form clouds in the cold winter air. You contemplate. You remember. You enter the room, the music sets in and you feel the comfortable warmth touching your skin, the pleasure of being inside, which derives from knowing the cold and stingy fresh air in the alleyway. You walk the corridor, enter the hall and see the stage. Welcome home.

Feelings can creep up on you. Without you even noticing.
I knew that ... but did she?

Journey to 2046

2010. There is still so much room for improvement. Knowing exactly what you want and even more so, what you do not want, gives you the potential to go unknown heights. ... what did I know. There is and was still so much room for more.

Craving for that feeling, wanting to be possessed by that feeling. I hated to be normal all my life. Maybe I should stop trying to be, stop trying to fit into a normal life. I could settle for an ordinary life. But maybe I always felt I was meant for something more. Something better.

The trick is not to look for love. Look for yourself. Look for your destiny. Pursue it with all means. Without compromise, without hesitation. You are fully capable of deciding your own destiny.

I dare myself to do better. Tired of all this. Mediocre, mundane, normal. Its human nature to settle for security. I hate security. I cant live like this. They all give in. Ultimately. They all take place in the long grey line of being afraid to know what would have happened. Security.

When all is perfect, when all is realized and finished. Just burn it. walk away from it. Leave it. Life is change. Fuck security.

Watch me fail. I will. Laughing.